Don't you speak to me like that!!

Hello you guys, how use all doing?

Now lately I've been thinking about the way I think of myself! Haha that doesn't sound right, does it? Well anyways what I mean is if the thoughts I had about myself were said to me by someone else, boy would I dislike them and possibly want to high 5 their face. So I was sitting one day and thought how dare I speak to myself the way I do, sounds completely crazy (excuse thee pun) and maybe it is. But honestly I can't see me being constantly negative about myself gonna help matters one bit. Now throughout this post it may seem like I talk to myself a lot but I swear it's all done silently in my head so just don't calling my doctors yet! 

Self image

If I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror you'd most likely hear, "look at the state of you" "loose a bit of weight" "your a mess" and well in fairness most of these days my hair probably didn't meet the hairbrush and I put on the first thing I found in the wardrobe. But imagine someone you know saying them things to you! Would you accept it? Absolutely not!! So why on earth do we tolerate constant put downs from ourselves. I know I need a good kick up the arse from myself  (giggling picturing this! Might try it later when finished) 

Parenting

Is anyone the perfect parent? What does that even mean? I know I look at other mums and wonder how on earth you doing all that. See these mums who seem to have constant playtime and still manage to run a house. Hats of to you! I envy you a lot. But in reality I hope that my kids will say I was a great parent despite the amount of time we will disagree and have a wee fight. This in an example of a wee argument between me and my 3 year old recently. Miley asked for a drink so I went to the fridge and got her a purple one but she wanted a green one. Seems easy to fix but nope I only had purple. So after a lot of discussion on how it was the purple drink or water. My lovely little innocent 3 year old stamped her foot, told me she didn't want me anymore, then stormed down the hall and slammed yes slammed the door shut! My first thought was dear lord help me when she is a teenager, my second was that was some door slam for her age and then it hit me. The words "I don't want you anymore", I felt like shite the nasty thoughts came in fast "bad mother" "you should of done this" "you should of done that". I sat down put my head in my hands and wondered how could a question, can I have a drink end in this? Well basically I made myself think awful things for no reason because less than ten minutes after the fight, up she came with some pretend tea and cake for me. I asked her "are we friends now?" Her reply, "of course we are, your silly mammy" while she went and grabbed the purple drink and drank it. So there you have it, I'm silly but I need to get my act together before she's a teenager. There's going to be fight but hopefully in the end tea and cake will fix it all again. 

We need to stop putting ourselves down, I can bet the way you feel about yourself is not how someone else sees you. Let's stop beating ourselves up because of a few flaws or because we don't do things by the book and someone may judge. No matter what you do people are always gonna judge, especially yourself, so let's start being kind and let's start with ourselves. 

Stay safe, stay healthy and look after your sunshine,

xO Leonie 

If your happy & you know it!

Hello, how are you? I hope your well. 
I'm starting to become a bit of a disaster at posting lately. It's been a busy few weeks and sleep is much needed. But how fantastic is the weather lately I just love it. Hopefully it stays for a while because a bit of sunshine makes us all happy. So I'll be honest I haven't really been having a good day/week/month etc. I can't really explain it but there's more bad days than good lately. Really though its only an odd time it's the whole day that's bad. If any of you are like me it's mainly a bad few hours here and there in a day. 

I don't know if it's a good thing or not but I can now notice some of the things that lead to me going into a really low mood and struggling to cope. Sometimes it's good because ideally I can remove myself from the situation but a lot of the time it's not possible so I've to battle on. Now I know some of the things that cause me to go on a downward spiral are fine for you and you may not relate to them. We are all different so feel free to message with your own triggers and I can post them for others to feel a little normal and know that their not alone. So here goes remember no judging.

Stress and stressful situations

Is there anyone who doesn't get stressed? I stress over practically everything, many things that haven't even happened and may never happen. I can't help it but I'm trying my hardest. In a day to day basis I can clearly see the times that become stressful for me. They include mornings not every morning but if we're rushing to be somewhere you can guarantee that things ain't going to plan. Cereal and toast will no doubt be stamped into the ground and so many times the second we are all set to jump in the car a nappy is needed changed. My girls hate car journeys of any distance and unless I'm fully prepared with a few juice bottles and a handful of toys to occupy them when tempers strike I will most definitely loose the battle. If you ever meet me along the road you may join in and sing along to "if your happy and you know it". You'd be amazed at the new lyrics you can make up. Now a big stress trigger for me is when I'm preparing dinner. This may seem strange but in my house this is when the girls seem to want me most. They're tired after a busy day and just want to wind down with cuddles but they end up getting cranky with each other which leads to plenty of fights. So there's been plenty of ruined dinners. Some burnt and some still uncooked due to forgetting to switch on the oven. I bet a few of you have this one and that's stressing over the state of your house. I can tell you all now if you visit me my house won't be spotless but it will be clean. Someone said to me lately "why waste time worrying about cleaning, when you could be making memories with the kiddies". It's so true, today I should of been washing the floors but instead me and Kaelyn spent an hour giggling in the sunshine. But that's just a few of my day to day stress triggers and with a bit of better planning I could easily have a few stress free days.  

Negativity and negative people

Well this one is tricky, maybe I deserve some of the negative comments because I'm putting myself out there to be judged by doing this blog but is there any need really. I've never claimed to be a professional writer, so I'm well aware that a post from me comes with plenty of grammar mistakes and you can have them as a wee treat. Now I've 100% never claimed to have any background in mental health, honestly I've no idea I write about what I'm going through and what I'm learning along the way. I'm not okay and I struggle just the same as some of you guys. If we all stand together and help one another instead of judging, I really think more people will feel able to speak out about their own issues. 

Comparing yourself to others

I think a lot of people are guilty of this and where does it lead us? No good, that's where. I see the 
mum in the supermarket with two or three kids in tow and envy her. How does she do it? I can't manage a shopping trip with both my girls I gotta take one at a time or sometimes none. I find it far too stressful, does that make me a bad parent I bloody hope not. If there's one thing I've learned and everyone needs to know this, is that even if you think you know someone that person is only showing you what they want you to see. We are so silly we compare the worst part of ourselves to the best part of others. It's all pointless it leaves us feeling insecure and inadequate and it's time to stop. Only compare yourself to you! 

So really that's just a few of my triggers and there all so silly and easily fixed. Message on your own low mood triggers and i will post them up so everyone can relate and not feel alone. So come on everyone "if your happy and you know it........" 

Stay safe, stay healthy and look after your sunshine.
xO Leonie