Hello, I hope your well.
Firstly I got to say I'm so sorry for the lack of blog posts lately, I have no excuse really. I've been quite busy but each night I plan to sit down and blog I end up falling asleep. Disaster!! One of the side effects of my medication is drowsy/tiredness but I don't blame that because I've always loved and really needed my sleep, otherwise I just be a huge grump. So tonight I've the girls in bed early and decided to get to work. I also have to mention the interview I did for The Derry Journal, now believe me I was so shocked that any newspaper wanted to hear about what I have to say because really all I know about mental health is what I'm going through and the help I've received so far. Thank god the response from the interview was fantastic and I was so overwhelmed by the lovely things everyone has said about it. You guys ain't a bad bunch x.
So I want to talk about negativity, don't we all hate it but still we all put up with it day to day. Negativity is everywhere and I bet you don't even realise it most of the time. I deal with plenty of negativity and sometimes I can manage it and rise above it but there's lots of times when it beats me and leaves me exhausted. I really want to mention more of the effects negative thoughts have on us. I mentioned in the interview for the journal how there's a very fine line in how you deal with what your thinking and it really is so true. It's only lately that I can see some sunshine thru the clouds that I'm able to reflect on thoughts I once had, so let me explain more on a few I've dealt with.
I remember this day so well I was stressed and had been in a low mood for a while and of course I never let anyone know things where getting on top of me (silly billy) so that evening I was on my own heading for some groceries, I drove over a bridge and all I could think of was "why don't you just drive off this, nobody will care". Now them few words had two choices of what kind of effect they had on my life and this is where the fine line comes in. I could have of said yes your right nobody will care, everyone will be better of if I wasn't here. If I thought like that more and more negative thoughts similar to that one would reappear in my life so much that eventually there would only be one way to keep them quiet and believe me the negative thoughts are the loudest. Thankfully my way of thinking that time when the darkest of thoughts entered my head is this. That evening within a minute of having that thought I said to myself "that was the most stupidest thought ever, why would you even think that" followed by many swear words and feeling like crap over a single thought. Unfortunately we all get bad thoughts but we got to try kick their arse with positivity. Now positive thinking is not easy and hats of to the people who have it perfected, I'm trying to do it more but it's so difficult at times and there's only so much tongue biting you can do.
A few positive thoughts could save your life or hey say a few positive affirmations out loud and you never know you may save someone else's. It's a scary world we live in and we don't know each others life story or struggles no matter how well you think you know someone, it's impossible to know everything. Mental Heath affects so many people, all from different backgrounds, all different ages and many celebrities who you think have the perfect life struggle each day. Nobody wakes up in the morning and chooses to have a mental health problem but we can all choose recovery. So come on, let's get on the positive road to recovery. Who's coming?
Now at the start of writing this I had the girls in bed but Miley decided she didn't want to sleep and asked me to write that she's enjoying eating mushmellows (marshmallows) and being a bogger (blogger) like mammy.
Stay safe, stay healthy and look after your sunshine.
xO Leonie
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